Waiting for someone or something to show you the way.
She began to straighten the lampshade. Then she made sure the pillows were fluffed on the bed. She tried to walk past him to go to the other side of the room, but he stepped in front of her. She pouted, and turned to face the wall. Tears began to fall on her bare feet. She held tightly to keep from never being able to come back; she felt so close to the edge of the abyss. He walked over to her and felt her stiffen. Another man might be put off by this apparent need to shed him off of her. He chose to push harder and pull her away from the wall.
'You will not ignore me gal. You will not be torturing yourself in front of my eyes. You are worthy of my love and of my counsel. You are not allowed to fall down and die from this my love.' He pulled her further from the wall, and closer to him. He pushed her face upward and saw she was very far away. He felt a need to shake her to get her closer to the surface. Blue looked at her and knew what had to try. 'I want you to listen to me. You can hear me even if you are not ready to come back.
'Are you fighting against obstacles that don't even exist Patty? Often, the imagined problems can hold you back more firmly than the real problems. You think we never will find him, and we will. For the imagined problems can prevent you from ever getting started in the first place. When you're certain that things are not going to work out, you have no incentive to move forward with them. That phone call was not about our son. Don't let fear freeze you from action.'
'You never really know until you make the effort. The chances are very good that the obstacles are not nearly as difficult as you imagine them to be. The bigger they look, the easier they may be to knock down. You must try to know this truth. Every undertaking has its challenges, to be sure. Yet there's no reason for you to add to those real challenges with your own imaginary ones. You are an extraordinary woman, but Patty you must stop with the extra work you cause yourself. You make it worse when you fear so much. Go ahead, take action, and you'll likely discover that many of the obstacles you once imagined are not even there. And you'll find a way to handle those obstacles you do encounter. I will most certainly help you my sweet wife. Don't let the imagined problems stop you. Step confidently forward and move ahead with those things that need to be done. Please step forward and come back to me my love. Come to me and I will soothe your soul.'
He then conjured up a spell that would shake her loose of the fear and depression that had held her so far today. She cried out as the spell had a painful effect. She was shocked into submission of no fear. It was a good spell when one’s mind is plagued so deeply that there is no chance of avoiding the consequences of this problem. Blue worked on her over a minute. She began to blink and her eyes cleared. She saw him and hugged him tightly. ‘The phone call Blue, the phone call.’ ‘Shush my darling, it was not our baby and you must let it go now. It is time to feed our bodies. You made my favorite dinner my love, now let’s go eat with our daughter. He smoothed her hair and dried her face. He kissed her long and slowly to warm her soul. They walked out hand in hand to go eat with their daughter. Bluesage smiled. He knew his spell was painful, her limp showed him that, but it gave her back her joy that had been spoiled.
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