As Patty cleaned up her kitchen, Becky noticed a small paper taped to the back of her card. She squinted and read the following:

"my darling daughter, be strong with mom. give this to her please. butterfly kisses to you beckster"

'Uh mom, come here. I have something that I think is yours.' Patty dried off her hands and came to sit down. 'Let me see Becky, it might be some good information, or a love note.' She winked at her girl, and heard 'OOO mom!'

 My Precious Beloved, 

I am well and thinking of you with warm sentiments. I can sense you are trying to maintain a high profile for Becky’s source of strength. I am honored to be your husband and know you are very able to keep up your spirits. Be still, create, give, and give some more. The more you give away of yourself, the more you will know how to tap into the answers. Connect yourself with all there is. Explore your world; see where you can make it a better place. Give yourself away. Trust that when you do this, it is good. Good in your world means it is right, but be not judge. What it is, is truth. It will change like all things. Use the life on Sims Earth for your own needs. Be secure knowing you chose to be there and it is just as it should be. 

 Patty, never forget this: Thought travels like light and has tremendous power, carrying energy. Focused thought has great power and is maximized as group thought. The mind is daily expanding and needs to develop a sense of responsibility, listening to inner guidance through meditation. When we focus on our thoughts, we are using the power of our conscious mind to control and choose our thoughts. In keeping with the Law of Cause and Effect (Universal Law) our inner thoughts are made manifest as forms, effects and conditions. By changing our thoughts, we change our life and our world. Meditation and Affirmative Prayer are our basic tools for spiritual growth. It is also what binds the two of us all our lifetimes. 

 Meditate each night before bed my sweet and you shall receive from me what I receive from you. We are one in our minds eye and in our souls. I love you darling and know it will be soon that we are in one another’s arms to rekindle our love.

 Take a walk down to the library tomorrow and speak to Mr. Whatley. He will assist you on your search for the new job.

 Keep well my darling and know I am with you every moment you breathe. 

Only for you, 

Steven 

Patty's heart was pounding, she felt such a deep warm glow within her. 'Honey, go ahead and get ready for bed. It's getting late, be sure and brush and floss your teeth.' Becky saw the way her mom's face glowed. Dad had said something to make mama feel better. As she walked up the stairs to her bath, she gave her dad a blessing. His love for both of them kept them warm and safe all the time he was gone. 

Patty finished up the kitchen just as she heard the doorbell. Before she answered, she ran up to check on Becky; bathing and singing as she washed her hair. As Patty walked downstairs she had to smile; her baby girl sang just as sweet as her daddy. She opened the door and found to her surprise a social worker. 

A woman extended her hand and shook Patty's. 'Mrs. Allen, I am Matilda Baritone. I have brought three babies that have been abandoned and we wanted to know if any are your son. All three are little boys, each being under two months of age.'  She looked over Matilda's shower and saw three nurses with infants in their hands. 

Patty’s heart leaped forward and she quickly checked all three babies. Her deep disappointment showed and the nurses each gave her an encouraging word, as she went from child to child. Patty could not hide her disappointment as she walked back towards her door. The nurses all got into the car, trying to calm a baby or two. Mrs. Baritone thanked Patty for her time, and wished her well. The woman understood the horror and pain the mother was feeling.

As she closed the door, she thought; why is this still not finished? She knew what she had to do. The heavy heart she carried needed a movement towards serenity. She looked around and then knelt down by her bed to meditate. She needed Blue so badly and felt this would have to do for now. Becky came downstairs and joined her mother.

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