Chapter 55

The light in the window began to change. He watched and heard the birds talking. Soon he heard more as she began to talk in her sleep. She was anxious and he knew her terror was soon to be over. He sat up and turned the light on, putting his glasses on. She was such an angel and has known her so long. Each life she seemed more delicate and pure to him. He ran his finger down her nose, stopping at her sweet lips.

She opened her eyes and smiled as his fingers dipped into her smile. She bit him gently and sat up. 'Hey Blue man what are you doing up?'  He answered her with a quick wave of his hand.

He had moved her blanket and the baby carrier with them to the courtyard.  They sat facing one another. 'Ooh you make me dizzy when you do that magic man. I was just lying in our bed a moment ago.' He just smiled, he knew it was fast but sometimes very necessary.  

His eyes watched hers as she tried to figure out what to say to him next. She had all the sense of what she had to say, but how? Finally after several uncomfortable moments, Blue helped her.

'Love, this is not a ship with no chance of embarking on a journey. You can launch it any time darlin' and I will listen. I have a feeling of what the nature of this is about, yet you are the captain.'

She felt foolish somehow. This was not right, she has known him always; he will not be anything more than the wonder that he is.  Yet her trauma over the past just kept her from being forthright. She turned to look at her baby bag. It was so sweet and still smelled of her baby son. As she bent to touch it, he bent to watch her face.

The truth of life is within the eyes, and he had to watch her to help her bring it out. She refolded all the blankets, nightshirts and diapers she carried in the bag.

'Steven, I feel I might know where our baby is. I called the house many times and never had anyone answer. Just say hello and then nothing.' Her words began to falter as she tried to go further. 'I walked all along the way to the interview. It went well Blue, it really did.' She tried to wipe her eyes as she went through that day in her head. He quietly listened, rubbing her lower back as she took some deep breaths to calm herself.

'Well I felt this need to go buy a paper.' She looked at him 'I don't know what possessed me but I did.' The rest was harder for her to say, as this seemed so horrible. Patty tried to say something, then stopped. She tired again with no luck. Finally she took a very slow deep breath, and began to say it.

'I saw how Betty Newbie had made such a mess at a Baby Sale. Someone had taken photos of her scaring everyone. She had a wild look on her face too. BLUE WHY DOES SHE NEED A BABY SALE?' She felt herself talking too loud and put her hands to her lips. He took them off her mouth and kissed them. 'Go on babe, just keep talking.'

As she talked of her ride home and the days prior to his return, he watched the daylight begin to stream into the kitchen. Patty seemed to be at the end of her ordeal, as she had taken all the soft baby items out and rearranged them, then gently placed them back into the bag. He had to stand and stretch his back. She talked to her baby carrier as if their son was in it; that charmed him about her.

She finally had everything just right. 'Hey, babe come here.' She stood and he grabbed her tightly. A few sobs escaped and he kissed her gently. 'My love, you know I might be out of your life, yet I am not out. I watch with all the care I am allowed. You did the right part of our journey and I am proud. There is no mountain I cannot climb over to get what we need. Now how about you and I looking in that fridge for some great breakfast. I have an idea there might be a dead racoon in the tray. He gave me a chance and I took it before I returned.'

Blue waved his hands and their meal and drinks were right before them. 

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